part 2 + 3

Senate Skates Video Part 2

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Senate Skate Video Part 3

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first ever video part.....

found this little gem today.... first ever part in a video.... haha pretty funny starts at about 3 minutes in.... check it

Senate Skate Video Part 1

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Feliz Navidad!!

merry christmas to all ya'll. hope your holidays are great and fun! as for me holidays are ok..... but heading back to mexico in the new year is even better!!!! gloria de Dios!!!

sooooo....

im down here in AZ and im lovin it!!!! just got back from a suns game tonight actually and it was AWESOME!!!!!!!! going around doing some dope stuff..... anyways nothing left to say now but suns cheerleaders are sexy and steve nash is amazing! nuf said

Phoenix

FINALLY..... getting out of manitoba for a while.... off to Phoenix in the morning to escape this blistering cold.... besos from phoenix

scopolamine

scariest thing i have heard of in regards to drugs...

take from this what you will...

Despite my usual love and admiration for this crazy son of a gun Suroosh Avli. He couldn't have pissed me off any more by displaying his bias opinion in this episode... i recognize that he has Pakistani / muslim history.. but common!! this is a 2,000 year battle between two religious groups who claim it as holy land. and despite multiple signed 'peace treaties' set forth by the U.N. between Israel and Palestine. The Palestinian leaders have previously and willingly admit that they will yet again break those treaties..

for as it states in the koran.. (along with a bunch of explanations of why it is okay to lie and pretend to sign treaties with infidels)

verse 4:74 - "Let those who would exchange the life of this world for the hereafter, fight for the cause of Allah; whoever fights for the cause of Allah, whether he dies or triumphs, on him We shall bestow a rich recompense."

verse 9:111 - "Allah has purchased from the faithful their lives and worldly goods, and in return has promised them the Garden. They will fight for the cause of Allah, they will slay, and be slain."

Verse 9:123 - "Believers, make war on the infidels who dwell around you."

Verse 47:3 - "When you meet the unbelievers in the battlefield strike off their heads and, when you have laid them low, bind your captives firmly."

Verse 48:29 - "Muhammad is Allah's apostle. Those who follow him are ruthless to the unbelievers but merciful to one another."

Verse 66:9 - "Prophet, make war on the unbelievers and the hypocrites, and deal sternly with them. Hell shall be their home, evil their fate."

verse 5:17 - "Unbelievers are those who declare: 'God is the Messiah, the son of Mary.'"

verse 5:51 - "Believers, take neither the Jews nor the Christians for your friends. They are friends with one another."

verse 5:73 -"Unbelievers are those that say: 'God is one of three.'"

Verse 4:101 - "The unbelievers are your inveterate foe."

Verse 49:15 makes this very clear. "The true believers are those that have faith in Allah and His apostle, and never doubt; and who fight with their wealth and with their persons in the cause of Allah. Such are those whose faith is true."

Verse 8:27 - "Believers, do not betray Allah and the Apostle, nor knowingly betray your trust. Know that your worldly goods and your children are but a temptation, and that Allah's recompense is great."

these explain a lot of the mindset distilled into these people.

but

before i get off topic with all the weird shit that goes along with this religion, ill stop there..

anyways point im trying to make is there is a correlation between these verses and a few others that comes to the conclusion that israel must be destroyed or Muhammad was wrong and basically the whole religion is proven to be a fallacy.. (if you would like me to explain contact me and i will, but right now im making a separate point)

... back to Palestine, Israel relations, in this video which depicts the the israeli government to be something similar to the government who put in the berlin wall........... in reality, without proper militant protection from the Israeli military (backed by superpower USA) and wall they are building around these areas that where negotiated to be given to the Palestinians, the Palestine country, and the rest of the "enemies of Israel" (basically all muslim nations) would jump at the chance to "ethnically cleanse" the holy land. leading to an attempted genocide of the jews... again... but not only the jews! anyone who is not a follower of islam. so all you 'infidels' out there (people who do not follow islam) don't be foolish and oblivious to this!!! all ask only that you educate yourself's with an accurate depiction, seeing point of view from both sides of this matter!

BAH HUMBUG!!!!!!

this was the site as a walked up the stairs to make my 'christmas' blended Starbucks coffee earlier this morning.. snow has come and covered the ground with about 15cm in less then 6 hours... fitting, being the 1st of december, my moms birthday (she loves christmas), and the first time i have even seen precipitation since i got here.... so why am i so angry?

CUZ I HATE SNOW!! i cant stand the 'pure' white blanket that covers everything that i once loved so dear.. the brown grass, stringy trees, and the beautiful, beautiful cement... the smell of snow only reminds me of the bitter, arctic air that is so abundantly provided for us manitobans come January... but the thing that i hate more than anything about snow.. is the "CRUNCH" sound it makes when you step on it.... its like nails on a chock board for some, or the sound of a nagging mother to all... there is nothing worse then knowing you have to walk from to front door to your car through snow.. only to be greeted by the need of scrapping your windows and waiting for the leather seat in your car to melt back from its ice sculptured state..

i don't like winter and i don't like christmas! scratch that i like CHRISTmas.. but i don't like the 'happy holidays' that seem to procure for a month before and a month after the actual celebration of the birth of christ...

BAH HUMBUG!!!

modern philanthropy

this would half to be my new found favourite philanthropist... a passionate man with a love for the poor and a gift to be able to nurture them into hope from nothing.

The Dream Book

okay starting to blog again... life has been busy as i have spent most my time trying to get set up working.. and establish myself in this new span of life.....

ill begin my "new blog" with what i promised from the old one....

My Dream Book

Entry 2 -

A reoccurring childhood Dream.

"Through the Looking Glass"

i had this particular dream, that i so affectionately call "through the looking glass", probably around a dozen times during my early childhood years.. The Dream always begins to unknowingly to be a dream. due to my abrupt endings i think it usually takes place sometime during my last REM sleep period. In the beginning i would always "wake up" from my slumber as i would on any other given day. I would begin to walk though my daily morning routine of traveling from my room to the small outdated family community bathroom directly across the hall, the horrific shag carpet pieces running through my toes. eventually i would make my rounds, visiting my sisters room to say good morning then off to my mothers room. eventually i would notice that the "wall of mirrors" we had directly at the end of the houses main hallway was somewhat peculiar, it didn't seem to be portraying a correct picture as the law of reflection stated it should. It was altered, i would usually ignore this and go along my day as everything was normal.. soon enough i would find out that things where far from it... although our family seemed to be the same there was something not right, something missing. they had no warmth to them, seemingly not having the soul and spirit that i knew my family members to have.. everyone felt so.... fake! i found myself trying to get away from my family members, only for them to follow me eerily around. I began to realize the day that had began so well, was rapidly becoming more and more Cordaline..ish. This altered family began to grow increasingly more upset as they could now see my insecurity with who they were and my fear of what they had become, this would begin a horrible verbal assault brought on by these.. things.. i called my family. "If you don't want to be here with us then just wake up!!" was a phrase that began to become all to familiar. At this point was always the time i would run back and sit cross-legged in front of the distorted mirror and pray to wake up.. i would try and try with every ounce of strength my mind could muster to wake out of this horrible place but looking into the mirror all i saw was frightening distorted demonic faces. The more i pray the more they scream, surrounding me, cursing me. i began to cry... looking at the mirror i realized it was more of a distorted window now, then a mirror.. i could no longer see the resembling beings reflection behind me cursing, but i could now see into myself. being able to see every corner of my psyche. Just as i began to realize the potential i had staring me in the face, just as i begin to see things about myself i had never realized.......

I woke up. get out of bed and begin my daily routine.. i would walk across the old red shag carpet feeling every shred of fabric run between my toes, into the outdated bathroom i would go.. and then over to wish my sisters and my mother a good morning... all the while noticing something strange... distorted if u will, with the mirror in the centre of the hallway......

this would repeat 3 to 4 times before i would actually wake up.. always followed by 2 to 3 days of being fearful to fall asleep.

I BACK SUCKAAAS

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WHOOAAA I fell off.... well folks i have been here there and everywhere west of the contenental divide.... been traveling like crazy the last two weeks from LA to Salt Lake to Calgary to Vancouver back to Calgary to brandon to Winnipeg to Phoenix back to Winnipeg and finally back to brandon... as where i am headed back to Winnipeg tomorrow so havent had much of a chance to blog... i promise i promise i will update you guys on whats going on and update my ugly ass blog soon enough with some pictures and fun new stories~!

starting with this as i was looking through my bed side i found my good old journal titled "the Dream Book" where when i have a strange dream i immediately write it down in the morning as not to dilute the story.

next post i will have a random story from this book.. as for now i gotta sleep to leave to peg city at 6 tomorrow morn' so ill catch ya later on.

As the curtains close..

life as i know it is slowly coming to an end... this week i will embark on a journey toward the great white north... a 23.5 hour drive to calgary alberta as i leave my DC job and LA life behind.. who knows what the future brings? i could be back here as quickly as i left.. but as of now i am heading to canada for a few days before i start working with the rick man and head down to puerto vallerta for my first official business. pray for me friends as life is about to change abruptly for me! 

summary story of life here later...

As life slows like a turtle on mescaline.....

i begin to think to myself.. what has happened to me that has lead me to acquire this immanence in one's self loathing and feelings of lost motives and goals.

Today, as my cousin Crystal, and my best Canadian born friend Corey came into my Los Angeles life, i began to ponder a few things... although this time in my life seems to be one that i SHOULD be feeling my greatest, i have yet to induce a high level of endorphins into my blood stream.. allowing for any opioid receptors to be free from any much wanted "happiness"  blockage... 

why?

 well your guess i as good as mine at this moment.. maybe its because i am sick, maybe its because i am not as close to God as i could be, maybe its because i long for something i have stayed absent from for over a year... Dating.

seeing that i have medicine now for my bodily issues and have been reading and praying regularly/ feeling like i am in a good Godly place. My instinct is leaning me toward the last on the docket.. its been so long i dont even remember what dating is...  

par example 

As Cor and myself stood in the ridiculously long line that awaits me at my favorite yogurt spot in little tokyo (that place makes a killing), I happened to notice a very, very, attractive young woman in-front of us inline.. i thought to myself "wow this is one of the first beautiful woman i have seen in LA, BEAUTIFUL.. (and that doesn't mean just hot because shes got make up on.. no this means no nothing needed to look good.. good as gold just as God brought her into this world)"  as i stood there in disbelieve i mumbled some bullshit conversation to my good friend corey with no intention to pay attention to his answer, strictly to prove to someone, anyone, that i wasn't lost and hypnotized, stuck on this woman's proportional perfection and perfect complexion..  

as we stood there, all of us stuck in line squished halfway between the entrance door's, something amazing happens... she glances* at me:)! then she looks away:(... and she glances* again:)! our eyes lock, smiles meet, and we seem to make a connection that i haven't felt in a long time!!, as im standing there hoping that i never loose the feeling of this moment.. i hear a loud crash! BANG!, and a crash again... our eyes break... i look to my left to see a crazed japanese woman trying to push her way through the door we had been squished beside for the past few minutes, that i might add, is clearly marked in big letters PULL. the woman looses her temper, screams something in japanese and pushes past us... i laugh. 

to my surprise my new "friend" shares the same sort of humour as me (something about a person going directly back to there primitive defense mechanism of loosing there temper on something small and that they are solely lone with the fault, in order to regain self confidence and not feel like a total jack ass.. that i find hysterical!) she laughs! then makes a cool calm collected and clever joke about this woman's negligence... could it be!! has God&Fate brought me a mate???

PAUSE!

here is the important part.. this is the most perfect situation a man could possibly ask for in a chance encounter with a woman... you have been given the three most important signs 

1. she looked at you, not once in a glance, but she came back for the second peak!.. what doest this mean? she doesn't think you look like a horses ass! so check for me 

2. you realize you both have something in common before you speak.. helps you to recognize that despite your obvious physical attraction.. there might just be something else in that relationship.. some substance.. (also helps with #3)check 

3. (now this is where you really need to not f**k it up..) she initiates conversation. this is soo big! even if she doesn't do it with words.. the fact that she opens up her body language and doesn't run in fear as you approach should let you know that she's at least not disgusted with your very existence and will give you a chance! check again for me

UNPAUSE

this is where i F**ked up..... 

not only did i have check on all three signs a woman should give you and a perfect opportunity to possibly start a new chapter in my love life, but she stood there looking at me waiting for a response from her joke.. in my mind was a battle at this point (what do i do? do i go for it? do i not? ya i should go for it for sure lets go for it) and all the while my mind was discussing this and coming to the conclusion to go for it, my mouth had already let out a light and polite chuckle followed by a bland ya.

ha... ha...  ha ya.........

ARE YOU SH*TTING ME?????

wow Jordan you are brilliant!!! thats what your mouth comes up with while your brain cant make up its mind..

she looked at me with a preposterous look on her face.. half smiling, looking confused, something along the lines of - does he not understand what i want him to do? maybe i wasn't clear enough with my joke? is he married? maybe he is just slightly handy capped? 

as the smile faded and she turned her head back toward the yogurt-land dispensers, i looked at her dumbfounded at my own foolishness and turned my eyes back on the back end of her beautiful form watching as we slowly moved forward in line, knowing that i will never again be able to relinquish what i had lost in that moment of "dumbassness".

i thought about fixing my mistake all the way until the cash register where i almost got the courage too!... but i didnt..

and as she sat at a table and i walked out the door she looked at me with a twinkle in her eye like it was saying "we could have been great together" and i looked back with a twinkle in my eye saying back to her "sorry im a meathead... i guess for the rest of my life its just me and my good ol' friend J I L L aka H A N D"

and i exit the store

B/S/T/S/K/F/O

So it was my b day yesterday.. it was quite the event beers tacos and live music made for a very happy jordan.. kept it very chill just hanging out with friends at the gold room and echo on Sunset boulevard and listened to leslie and the badgers (check them out) all and all a good evening! lots of exciting news coming up so stay posted!!! its gonna be a good week! 

in regards to last words with Pigeone

i was looking thru videos for work today... and i came across the little gem that is the last trick i filmed... haha check it out

H-O-V-GAY!

 jayz's new album is actually better then i thought it would be.. but if i have to listen to  jay z give him self one more backround shout out about how hes the  greatest ever i might scream...  track "run this town" (probably heard this gem seeing its on the radio every 5 seconds) is ok due to kanye stealing the show like the asshole he is, my favorite on the albume is definatly empire  SOM with alicia keys- really good beat and chorus mixed with jay actually doing a decent rap!! skip a few more shitty tracks and you have "on to the next one" its a swiss beatz beat so you know its a banger..  "star is born" is also a good track giving shout outs to some of the best mainstream rappers of recent history.... until he starts talking about how great he is in the last verse of the song. (how are you gonna give one line on nas and give yourself a whole verse?? FOOL!) thats when i turn  the track, and i hear "venus and mars" which sucks but its got a really good rhyme that  makes me think he stole it from someone "shortys screamin out hit em up, im  screamin' who shot ya!"... then the whole album goes down hill.... "so ambitious" with  pharell picks up a bit but... covering forever young??? are you  kidding me????

ya... defiantly not the best cd i have ever heard... but suprisinly good for j a y.

nas had it right with a couple things tho when he said-

"jay you just sound stupid, when krs already made an album called  

blueprint/"

"you seem to only be concerned with dissin women, where you abused as  

a child? scared to smile? they called you ugly?"

if you wanna check out a DOPE new album - see= 

Rain Machine

Rain Machine - Rain Machine

took this from Kingston Jones

i used to live here.....

winnipeg

Now i live here :) 

Los Angeles

Last Words with Pigeone

Last Words Jordan Brugger

Last meal you ate: cold oatmeal with bananas and vanilla protein powder washed down with V8

Last board you broke: Senate 8.25

Last person who inspired you: My father is always an inspiration! but actually Pastor Matthew was the last.

Last life-changing experience: Moving to LA

Last CD you bought: Swollen Members..... (seriously)

Last gadget you bought: new Ipod to replace my smashed Ipod..

Last board you set up: Red Senate 8.25, black and red venture lows, mystery 51's

Last place you visited: Ensenada, Mexico

Last movie you watched: Be Kind Rewind..... stupid as hell but mos def is dope

Last song you listened to: I Will Die a Free Man- Prank Williams

Last time you thought you were gonna die: HA! im a thanatophobe 

Last time you got into a fight: College Grad party, punk ass tweaker's

Last trick you filmed: film skateboarding? what a preposterous idea! but lipslide to nosegrind a ledge

Last time you felt out of place: every weekend in Compton

Last video game you played: Mario Kart for wii.. so fun!

Last trick you learned: nose grind back-smith.. or fakie blunt.. or back lip 5-0... or nose-manual to nose-blunt.. all in same day (it was a good day on the old box)

Last skate video you watched: Ride The Sky, Chris Cole makes me love skateboarding

Last good advice you received: My Commonwealth connection Louisa  "TAKE DOWN THAT BLOG POST"

Last good advice you gave someone:  don't let people dictate what you can and cant do, chase your dream!.. i forget who i told that too.

Last pair of shoes you bought: Purchased - circa drifters, Found next to a Dumpster- Emerica Hsu's

Last time you felt discouraged about skateboarding: yesterday, when i ate shit and smashed my face into a fence on my way to the skatepark... kinda throws that whole session into a downward spiral.

Last dream you had: having sex with mila kunis........ just being honest... you asked!

Last time you went to the hospital: a year ago... drove my cracked out friend to the hospital to see if he got slipped acid..

Last thing you watched on TV:  Its always sunny in philadelphia- the episode where charlie and dee get hooked on steroids.

Last car you bought: Audi A6 station wagon... OOOO YAAA

Last time you hugged someone: Today, my co-worker celes

your Conspiracy theories wont work without evidence, thats the reason Eric B is not President

just thought i would throw out my top 3 favorite conspiracy theories.... 

3. The Nazis had a Moon Base

Esoteric Hitlerists and conspiracy theorists interested in Nazi mysticism and World War II have speculated that the Germans landed on the Moon as early as 1942. 

According to other theories it is believed that the Nazis had made contact with 'half a dozen' alien races, including the malevolent Reptilians.

2.

September 11 was orchestrated by the U. S. government

A number of urban myths, alternative hypotheses and conspiracy theories have been formulated to explain the events of September 11th:

The U.S., Israel or Iraq government orchestrated the attacks themselves.

The Twin Towers fell straight down, at close to free-fall speed. This is a similar characteristic of a controlled demolition. The dust cloud and its make up are considered un-characteristic of a gravity-driven collapse.

It is often pointed out that no steel building before or since the 9-11 attack has collapsed as the result of fire.

The rubble of the Twin Towers smoldered for weeks after the collapse. This claim is meant to point out that steel could only have smoldered as a result of pre-placed explosives.

Some consider photographic evidence of the plane lying on the grounds of the Pentagon to be ambiguous and unconvincing, citing a visual lack of burnt metal, human remains, passenger's luggage or seats.

The Pentagon was struck in a newly renovated, reinforced section. Some speculate this location, the west side of the complex, to be indicative of government involvement, noting it as an attempt to reduce casualties.

Flight 77 was able to fly in the direction of the DC and Pentagon area for approximately 40 minutes without interception. This is thought to be unusual given the Pentagon's close proximity to Andrews Air Force Base.

There are claims that anti-missile batteries at the Pentagon should have intercepted Flight 77.

The FBI confiscated a video, which may have captured the impact, from a nearby gas station attended by Jose Velasquez. This video has not yet been released.

1.srael makes palestinian schoolgirls sexually promiscuous by selling them aphrodisiac bubble-gum

"Palestinian authorities uncovered Israeli efforts to spread a special kind of gum that contains sexual hormone between Palestinians. The authorities requested laboratory tests on the gum which were conducted in Cairo. Those tests showed that the gum contains progesterone which is responsible for sexual arousal and also prevents pregnancies. Palestinian authorities confiscated 200 tonnes of gum in the city of al-Khalil alone. The Washington Post claimed in report that if it asked a chemistry professor in the Hebrew university to examine the gum. His tests were negative, however the paper also reported that the majority of Palestinians believe the conspiracy. It quoted one Palestinian saying that it was possible to send a space ship to Mars then it is possible to manufacture a 'sexual gum' it is after all a war." (report by Mohammad Dalbah mentioned by middle east analyst Daniel Pi on his book pes)

cross roads best trick

chris cole is a farkin skateboard genius!!! i dont understand him.... all i know is when i was skating the plaza in peg with him i have never seen someone land so many tricks with such little effort.. minimum 2 trys for everything... freakin insane

weird

Bizarre Tongue-Eating Parasite Discovered Off the Jersey Coast

by Brian Merchant, Brooklyn, New York  on 09. 9.09

TRAVEL & NATURE 

BUZZ UP!

Photo via Clever Cherry

There's been a spate of amazing animal discoveries recently--the giant rat-eating plants found in the Philippines, a huge woolly rat discovered in a volcanic crater--and now, yet another creature has emerged that could be right out of a sci-fi film. It's a bizarre creature that survives by eating its hosts' tongue and then attaching itself inside the mouth.

The sea-dwelling parasite attacks fish, burrows into it, and then devours its tongue. After eating the tongue, the parasite proceeds to live inside the fish's mouth. There's a horror film waiting to be made about this thing. Surprisingly, the fish doesn't seem to suffer any severe impediment--just the loss of its tongue--and seems to have no trouble surviving with its new, far uglier tongue.

Photo via BBC

While the isopod, a kind of louse, has been known to exist for a while now, discoveries of live specimens is rare. The BBC reports that "Fishermen near the Minquiers - islands under the jurisdiction of Jersey - found the isopod, a type of louse, inside a weaver fish." So no, the tongue-eater wasn't found in that Jersey. The Jersey Shore is still tongue replacing creature-free, if you stateside Northeasterners were worried about the thing ruining your late summer vacationing.

Not that you'd have to be too concerned anyways--the isopod isn't a threat to humans in the slightest, though it's reportedly vicious, and can deliver quite a little bite. One of the fishermen who found the creature described it thus: "Really quite large, really quite hideous - if you turn it over its got dozens of these really sharp, nasty claws underneath and I thought 'that's a bit of a nasty beast'." And while it can't seriously hurt people, it evidently doesn't like them: "It doesn't affect humans other than if you do actually come across a live one and try and pick it up - they are quite vicious, they will deliver a good nip."

ooops

rant last night might have been a bit harsh sorry for that....... i love the dream center and i love my leadership so sorry if it came across that this place is horrible... its not.

anyways enjoy a lovely stupid video of a photo session.... i just like it cuz i was filmed where i went to college and in the back lane i walked to and from my car everyday :) so you get to see where i went to school rrc WHAAAT

Kristalee and Brock E-Shoot HD from A Moving Picture Studios on Vimeo.

 

NIGHT OF DREAMS

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MEXICO??

apologies for the lack of updating...

it has been one busy ass couple weeks!

so last weekend i headed down to mexico to escape the hellish nightmare that is the Night of Dreams... and all i can say is Thank you Jesus for my sweet escape, Mexico!! i sat outside listening to dogs bark and neighbours scream at their children in spanish, read, eat tacos, drank coke and coffee all weekend long!!! it was amazing!!! also went to la bufadora (where i spotted this doebra or zeonky which ever you wish to call it) and went shopping and just hung out! it was awesome!!!! 

fire?

i went to the top floor of our building today... and look what i see!!! fires in la canada spreading like crazy and is now over 10,000 acres.  woke up to smoke filled air and a seemingly ever growing cloud of smoke over the mountains directly to the north of me... crazy!

reminds me of my highschool days.

if only i went to school in guadalajara during the 50's

Un Juego Absurdo (subtitled) from Ricardo Montoto on Vimeo.

in case you have't noticed i am picking some of my favorites from international film festival! freakin amazing stuff guys

the decendant

TRIPPPPPPPPYYYY

The Descendent from Robert Glickert on Vimeo.

Psychotic Disillusions

In my earlier years,

I had some interesting thoughts come across my mind....  birthed with an overactive imagination and the attention span of a gold fish, my mind tends to fly from one point to the next rather quickly...

i thought about a lot of things growing up, but the one aspect that consumed my mind more often then any others was the possibility that my cognitive psychological learning could be curved in a way that allowed my thoughts, surroundings, and even the whole universe as i see it to created by........... yours truly! 

 

could it be? that everything and anything you have ever known to be nothing more that a matrix complex? could my whole life be something that the mind has created??? is Los Angeles or winnipeg even real places? are the people that surround me nothing more than Disillusions my cerebral membrane created? 

for many years i half expected to wake up looking at flickering florescent lights attached to a white stuckle roof surrounded by fire-ready water pipes. and like a scene directly out of the butterfly effect, sitting up from a catatonic state to an inability to move my arms away from my midriff, with hair and facial over growth resembling something similar to Tom Hanks after being stranded on the island for so long (now that i think of it maybe having a hospital slipper with a foot print on it called "milson"). that vision still hasn't come to pass, although i have never ruled it out!

when i was about 12 years old, (only one year to becoming a teenager, on my way to junior high already complete with my life goal pretty much figured out. i now knew everything necessary i would need to do in life to achieve my goal of becoming a high-school retiree and quickly marrying Oprah.) was when i really began tho think of psychosis as a serious possibility!!

at 12, it started with visual dreams that scared every swearword imaginable out of me!! this quickly progressed to waking up in the middle of the night to dark figures in my room and progressed further to voices talking to me during the day and night.. eventually it got so bad that i felt a need to drop my newly found individualistic approach to life's problems and decided to seek help from my parents. I was taken to see doctors, pastors, and others to try and get this issue resolved. for a 12 year old i was pretty well knowledgeable in the field of psychology due to an interest in crazy people, brought on mostly by cinematic masterpieces such as "the Shining" and books less stunning, but equaly fd up, like "goosebumps", this leading to quickly associating myself as either a schizophrenic or someone with dissociative identity disorder.... 

either or, i figured Oprah would have to wait until after my many upcoming years of being heavily medicated and under constant surveillance.

this "time" was when i begin to obsessively think of my previously determined theory of myself living a life completely imagined from within the dark place deep inside that is the damaged "ego" area of my psyche apparatus.

during this hellish 6 months of my life i often thought about taking a neuropsychological test and brain screening to prove myself to be "insane" (or sane).... although if my self-diagnosis was correct, it would be quite logical and probable that my psychosis would create the most convenient test results to appease my affliction's desired path.

my parents, decided it was a spiritual battle also know as the "coming of the age of accountability". which to be honest i thought was a load of shit for a long time.. even well after the fact!  but after a while it began to make sense. maybe, just maybe, these voices (which often told me about how god didn't care about me and i was going to become overpowered and take by them) were only demonic forces fighting for my soul as i come out of an age where i am not responsible for my own decisions...  eventually i began to call out on Jesus for help... and slowly but surely the voices began to stop.... and eventually quit! 

although it still didn't click in my mind that god actually had anything to do with it.... i continued (and i cant lie, still occasionally to this day) to think that it was only overactive imagination getting the better of me...

but after becoming a christian last year, God has showed me that i am not crazy and it was a battle for my soul....  and im glad to say that God is now winning the battle!!

although i still occasionally ponder on the possibility of my very own alternate universe... and even wonder if my new found sanity in the lord is just a figment of my imagination.....

not being blasphemous only being honest in my train of thought..

whatever the case, i have kept the Holy Trinity as my constant, between reality, time, and my  auditory hallucinations... 

if the TV series LOST has taught us anything of value, its that life may just be a lot more that what we know... as even time is something created by God during the 7 days of creation as something that is earthly and can be altered. and as long as you have a constant between whatever worlds you may be caught between you will be safe... 

for me im just glad i can keep my constant between whatever world i may be in now (whether fabricated or real!!!) and the world that my creator is .. 

and that my friends! in it self, keeps my crazy mind grounded.

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Canada Trip part 3

Finally!!!! wow! closing out canada trip with a toast to the triple threat!

its cool i got it, i got it, i got it

having troubles compressing the last video... once i get it fixed it will be up yo..

not like its great quality film or anything but its canada... cant expect much from our movies and tv shows they so amateur... anywho have a good week. busy here at the dc right now... life is crazy boring... crazy ..... boring.... best way i can describe it 

keep posteeddd

Canada Trip Part 2

a little more entertaining...

Canada trip part 1

Enjoy!

saw this today... thought it was awesome

http://www.vimeo.com/6010218

check it out

WHOA WHOOA!!!

not updating nearly enough!!!!

so back in california again...... canada was pretty good... video of my travels will be up and ready for tomorrow.... so until then have a slended afternoon and dont eat yellow snow.

what?

sorta fell off being up yonder.....

back tomorrow....

lots of vids for later of my canada time :) kingston 12 56 ok,

lates

sad day for pigeon bruggiere!!

just getting ready to jump on a plane back to peg city..... and having to say goodbye to my favorite german nazi roommate ever!!!!! (he will have left back to germany by the time i am back from C-A-N-A-D-A)

quote from while we were talking this morning-

Jordan- samuel i'm going to miss you!!! were am i gonna find another gay, horny german???

Samuel- EASY with that!!! horny... yes, but gay!!!!!... only sometimes!

o how ill miss him!

OH! Canada

So tomorrow its back up to ninette manitoba for family reunion..... not excited other then the fact its cousins fun house and i get to see my dog..... keep update. i am going to vblog our cousinly adventures!! haunted houses everything. enjoy the canadian pigeons shit!!!!!

GETTY YO!

went to the getty and it was freakin fun!!! i loved it so much!!!! only thing i wish is that we went earlier so i could have looked around more!!! only got to 2 of the exhibits... but they where both wonderful!!! i will be going back soon! you can bet your mona lisa on it!!

more pics at my facebook page !! 

getty today

HOOOOLLLAAA !!! pictures tomorrow~!

what up california! its a scorcher in our southland.

its been over 30c (86f) for about 2 weeks straight!~! and having no air conditioning at my pad is starting to get to me.... 

yet i refuse to sleep without my blanket.... 

anyways kinda fell off the bandwagon with the bloggin for a little bit... 

but cop this CD !! suuuper hip hoppy good shit yo

don't care if you have to steal your grandfathers oxygen tank and sell it to tyron down the street for crack, and then sell the crack to adolescents. you should have this album by now

 

Toonie Tuesday's

getting ready to go into a meeting.... crap!!! 

but today is nothing special...... again... been a boring week. yesterday me and Becca went to handcock park to see if my friend Mr. vickers was around... he wasn't. so we went to yogurt-land..... what an amazing place!! well tonight me and Becca are going to go to Bruno the new Sasha Cohan movie. should be good and stupid. 

lastly i have a question- if suzy has 3 apples and johnny has 5. how many apples will johnny have if suzy steals 2 of his?

answer= 8, because boys can beat up girls :)

Turn back the sample, flip between the two channels

Sorry :s,

Kinda fell off yesterday and skipped on blogging..... but Becca, Christina, Samuel, and your's truly went to santa monica beach.. it was super nice out.. but i didnt get tanned... just harassed by... pigeons, ironic. anyways other then that me and bec watched a couple hours of arrested development .. to which i am now scared that the british are after everyone.. damn Mr. F.

Skateboarding yo

Today i spent most the day in commmmpton,

imperial courts to be precise....

i am going to be starting up a new "outreach" from Adopt-A-Block in the skateboarding community..... 

give the kids in the projects a positive influence to hang out with (and yes i consider myself a positive influence) anyways ill let you guys know more as time progresses 

today was the first time i saw the park that i will be starting with... hoping to branch out to more parks as time goes by.... 

Friday Is Time To Party!!!

Actually no... just going to the observatory tonight.... which is really cool too!!! then maybe afterwards ill go do a keg-stand at Yogurtland... who knows where the night will take me ????

pics of the observatory

Thursday is church for me so listen up ass chins!

Today i wanna give you a little about what i have been reading about this week.. trying to expand your thinking and guide you to not being fools!!

Thursday's i have decided is going to be my church day on blog spot so heed and read yo!

10 passages from proverbs that speak to me during this time

1- The trustworthy will get a rich reward but a person who try's to get rich quick will only get trouble 28-20

2- When there is moral rot within a nation its government topples easily. but with wise and knowledgeable leaders, there is stability. 28-2

3-  Fire goes out for lack of fuel, and quarrels disappear when gossip stops. 26-20

4-  Yanking a dogs ears is as foolish as interfering with someone else's argument. 26-17

5-  Just as the Rich rule the poor, so the borrower is servant to the lender. 22-7

6- Avoiding a fight is a mark of honor, only a fool insists on quarreling 20-3

7-  The wise have wealth and luxury, but the fool spends whatever he has.  20-20

8- Mockers are proud and  haughty, they act with boundless arrogance. 21-24

9- Blessed are those who are generous, because they feed the poor. 22-9

10- A prudent person foresees the danger ahead and takes precautions; the simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences. 22-3

one more just cuz i love this one

* - Wisdom is sweet for your soul. If you find it, you will have a bright future, and your hopes will not be cut short. 24-14

couzin's fun house

My wonderful cousin Becksta Beckface is down from cow town for a little visit! sent her out to skid row today and she has just informed me that she is going to be in the bathroom for the next half hour "scrubbing her hands till they bleed". not much planned for today.... went to glendale last night... umm ya been a boring tues/wens... 

meeting i was supposed to have with universal music group (not about the music video from yesterday haha) this week got cashed too.... fn sucks!! 

super Pissed about that but what can you do...

anyways,

have a good day suckas!!! 

new album release ~

so i was gonna rant today about how much i hate friends that SNITCH!!!! 

you know who you are  !!! but instead i decided to give you guys a preview of this new album i am really excited about!!! 

so... stop snitchin' and stop lying and check this out....

10 reasons why i like Mexicans and Mexico

Due to my lash out yesterday, I thought I would try and fix things with my Mexican friends with a salud to them the 10 things i like the most about Mexico.

1. Taco stands/ Marisco's breakfast stands

2. Sexy women with attitude 

3. Instant coffee and sweet bread sundays

4. Bob Esponja

5. Carne Asada with frijoles and coke later wash everything down con dos equis o la tequila sunrise.

6. El Cuerpo del deseo

7  Trucks with the big racks in the back for packing in the family and friends.

8  The Enciso Family

9. Stolen satellite (nothing like watching hockey night in canada on CBC in the middle of the mexican desert)

10. A sense of acceptance and family importance.

random hike in ensenada

Big City, Bright Lights!

so yesterday i went and hung out in Hollywood with some homies of mine who have never been there.... now i have to tell you, I hate Hollywood more than anything about Los Angeles (well actually venice beach is worse but)... its grimy, dirty, stinks like shit, looks like shit, home-dudes left and right want you to cop there horrible rap albums, or by weed from them,  weirdest sex shops i have ever seen, and its the place where your childhood imagination gets  totally smashed into a million little pieces as you find out all your childhood hero's from mickey mouse to spiderman to dora the explorer are nothing more then fat motivationless mexicans with mask's on...

word to the wise - if you love the glitz and glamour that t.v. makes hollywood into. do not visit the city... avoid with your life the stars and the walk... and you can continue to wear to bed those old batman pajama's without imagining yourself with a pot belly, greasy mustache, and a taco de carne asada stain down the bat logo, sitting on the side of a trash can hoping that maybe., just maybe some ridiculous mid-western american tourist's dressed like indiana jones will want you to take a picture with him, his two dorky kids, and usually somewhat hot, soccer mom of a wife....